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announcement

2008-03-28T22:09:00.002+04:00

due to the office being the sorry mess it is, and blogger being blocked, i have decided to ditch old blogger and switch to wordpress.

the new place needs a housewarming gift :D

q 3

2008-03-20T14:29:00.002+04:00

had the pornography industry not been founded, do u think ppl wud have been less obscene than they r nowadays??

bleh!

2008-03-20T12:53:00.005+04:00

if jordanians r considered the grumpiest of all arabs, the brits must be their counterpart in the west!

i've worked with them and i vowed never to ever again! 2 years of being the only arab in an office of 32 brits and 2 south africans (those r amazing tho).. i think the brits enjoy being sarcastic and miserable.. & i think its only coz they HAVE to focus on some1 else's life and faults but their own coz they cant handle it... and their chronic politeness is the most annoying bit of it all!!! i hate dealing with fake ppl, and being THAT courteous is so not genuine. its almost revolting. id rather deal with blunt, in-ur-face ppl, ones who speak their mind all the time rather than ones who try so hard not to 'hurt' others with saying what they think, as if ppl r made out of glass..

why did they have to get us a new (and brittish) head of department!!! i was happy walla :(

plastika fantastika

2008-03-20T12:31:00.003+04:00

لا يصلح العطار ما افسده الزمن

oh but a plastic surgeon can!

how open r u to the idea of plastic surgery?

personally i am all for it! but then im a woman! lol, no seriously i accept it completley only if its reconstructive.. a face lift when u age, a tummy tuck when u lost a lot of weight, a broken nose being fixed, thats all fine by me.. in fact i think it helps lift the spirits more than anything anyone can say to un-depress a person.. but changing one's looks just for the mere thought that they wud look better than the way God Almighty created them is a definite no!

Hime & Co, here i come!!

2008-03-11T21:13:00.004+04:00

ok, the japanese, for a long time, have been the wackiest ppl in my book! they come up with the most rediculous inventions.. they r crazy with their pop culture, their dress sense is the least bit 'normal' and now they come up with this 'benefit' to working at Hime & Co!!! the heartbreak leave! yup, u heard me right.. if one of their employees is dealing with a bad break up or a divorce, they get a paid leave to just cope and get over it and come back with a more positive attitude, which i think is ok...

but get this, same company gives 'shopping leaves!!! so if there's a sale and women wanna catch it bi rawa2 in the day time and NOT after work where places will be packed, SO they take PAIIIIIIIIIIIIIDDDDDDDDDDD leave to just go shop!!!!

im moving to japan!

random thoughts

2008-03-11T20:28:00.004+04:00

have been away, since blogger is blocked at work, and i have a life after work, hence, i dont get online much.. so behold! a dose of my randomness!

philipinos r the best in service industries by faaaarrrr! i am believing that more and more every day! they do have a bad habbit of singing all the time, in the worst places and times ever! but still, most of em have crappy jobs, and get paid in minumum wage, live from paycheck to paycheck, and yet they keep smiling.. and provide the best service.. singing gets them by i guess..

i've always had a fear of boundaries, not clusterphobic per se, just cant stand being surrounded by borders.. like while driving, if i come to a point where there r those orange cones and the street goes a little tighter, i freak out! and hyperventilate until im done with that part of the road!i donno how wack is that, but i feel wierd!

i hate hiccups!!!! oh and i hate sneezing too.. especially nowadays, hay fever is peaking! i just cant stop sneezing :wa3: and just like hal, i fear it!

im so in love with the color purple! all freaking shades of it! :mushy:

WTF

2008-03-11T20:26:00.000+04:00

Quote of the day

2008-03-03T21:34:00.000+04:00

Hard work never killed anybody, but why take a chance?
- Edgar Bergen

how chinese multiply

2008-03-03T21:02:00.001+04:00

i came across this video and was amazed! who comes up with these stuff?!

Q 2

2008-03-01T00:41:00.003+04:00

unisex q again..

how comfortable r u having an insanely more attractive partner?

LOL

2008-02-29T23:45:00.007+04:00

im the type of person who has no trouble getting up in the morning, i actually wake up before the alarm goes off.. that is if i had a good nite sleep!

these alarms however, r so cute! they FORCE u to wake up lol creators of such merchandise have all the time on their hands to come up with such ideas :D

1. this one keeps ringing until u put the 'puzzle' together.. of course, when ur half asleep it will take a while, in which, u wud have completely woken up!

2. if u were able to stay awake after putting the puzzle clock together. this will give u a challenge! it actually flees and moves around in the room until u find it to stop the alarm :D morning excercise! lol

3. if that dint work, this will deffinitely wake up once and for all! all u need to do is just push the button.. BUT every time its a different button!! lol ray2een :D

MOFOs!

2008-02-29T23:43:00.001+04:00

blogger is blocked at work now.. urghhhh!!

how hetero is metro?!

2008-02-26T16:34:00.004+04:00

Metrosexual is a neologism generally applied to heterosexual men with a strong concern for their appearance, and who display many of the lifestyle tendencies of stereotypically homosexual men. - Definition courtesy of Wiki

Polls

cool gadgets!

2008-02-26T15:28:00.006+04:00

ok ok its not quite the problem solving gadget of the year but its so cool! especially when its really cold u cant hold anything up with ur gloves, and u just wanna have a nicely rounded snowball for a memorable fight!! i loved it!

2. coffee addicts on the go will love this coffee mug

which'll keep ur coffee warm as u catch up on ur to do list and schedules and alerts!

3. bidi minno! its a wonderful idea to keep ur towels always fresh, dry and warm, just like a hotel's fluffy warm towel!

4. Gravity never goes out of stock.. a tech student in Virginia figured out a way to have an eco friendly, electricity economic gravity lamp that lasts up to 200 years with a usage of 8 hours a day!!

5. finally! something i wud buy for a colleague of mine who tortures his keyboard by stomping and crushing all its keys!! not only is it silent it also connects to two PCs at the same time!

predictions.. 20 years from now..

2008-02-26T12:24:00.004+04:00

1. lebanon will have postponed elections for the 340th time, and still counting!

2. dubai will have the biggest, largest and TALLEST dome on earth to cover the city and keep its weather controlled and clean

3. dubai's population will be 80% indians

4. we wont worry bout obesity anymore , it will be mandatory to excercise in the office for an hour or two

5. america's recession will get the best (if any) of it until there is nomore..

6. more children will be homeschooled

7. i believe (another word for hope) we will be able to teleport freely!

8. sabbou7a will still be around, and still singing!

feel free to add ur predictions too!

Untitled...

2008-02-25T12:23:00.003+04:00

An image made of light

I see clouds not so white

a mixture of yellow, blue and grey

some rays battle and go astray

i sit with my hands holding my head

i cant bear the sounds of silence, oh so dead..

an aching heart, a dormant mind

an endless fight that's not so kind

both bearing daggers and knives

a fight ending in death of beleifs and lives

they lie there looking so waif and dead

and even in Death, they again were wed...

HadeS

mumbo not so jumbo

2008-02-24T17:07:00.005+04:00

im tired, sore, exhausted, & sleep deprived..

i have 1) a splitting headache, 2) an enormous urge to kill my boss, 3) an itch in my throat and signs of the flu :eek: (that wud be the gazillionth in 6 months!)

i dowanna cook anymore, or do the laundry, or think of work, or even have to work! i just wanna live in peace.. do nothing, just lay there, no movement, or sound, or light.. everything is made and everything in place. i just wanna become a parasite! try to be a mooch for a change.. been holding responsibilities since i was 21.. 6 long years.. all alone. im tired, sore, exhausted, & sleep deprived..

...

2008-02-21T09:57:00.004+04:00

this is what we're doing tomorrow..

and this is what we woke up to today!!!

lets hope the weather clears out tomorrow.. im so looking forward!

enjoy the weekend BeeBol!

the source of all evil!

2008-02-20T11:53:00.003+04:00

selfishness..

traffic wud be resolved with a little less selfishness, ppl driving into the start of a lane and push them cars in cutting in on everybody like they r too refined to wait like everyne else.. others cant bear the thought of giving way to another car, both get selfish and hot tempered, poof! fender bender, and a whole street gets locked coz of traffic! who cares bout other ppl waiting to get to their destinations..

poverty wud be somewhat less if retailers werent greedy and selfish, and if the wealthy actually gave some of their money to charities and/or funds to help the less fortunate cope with the rising cost of living..

mother nature wud be more grateful if selfish contractors wudnt ruin its beauty for construction of office towers and industrial cities and so on so forth..

a lot of ppl wud be healthier if selfish ppl thought of others for a change! second-hand smoking? hello! u wanna poison ur body, do it alone! what bout selfish ppl who care not to get tested and/or dont bother to be safe and end up passing STDs and HIV here and there?

hurt and pain wud be somewhat eliminated.. thus minimizing the psychological disorders our society suffers from! if a selfish mum/dad took care of her/his kids and household more, kids wud be raised better with a healthier personality.. not to mention a selfish partner ruins the idea of love to their partner shud they decide they want out of this relationship.. a lot of examples here, im just naming a few..

if there's anything i hate more than liars, its selfish and greedy ~~souls~~. no scratch that, they prolly dont have souls!!

LOL

2008-02-19T14:35:00.003+04:00

feng shui!

2008-02-19T12:57:00.003+04:00

well not quite lol but i love the concept of feng shui. and i just have to add a little chart for all of u to feng shui ur houses and office spaces!

il muhem, what item of furniture do u feel resembles u the most? lemme paraphrase, whats the item of furniture that most describes ur personality in ur room/house? and elaborate on the 'why' :D

first 6agga on new blog

2008-02-18T13:55:00.004+04:00

the very sweet Batoul tagged me, rules r simple, what r the 6 things i think a person shud do by the age of 18. here goes nothing! lol

1. i believe spirituality shud be established by this point, religious beliefs, principles, and values shud be outlined by this age..

2. experiment a lot with ur looks, as in, get a lot of peircings, dye ur hair, change ur style as often as u can, until u find ur identity!

3. be as crazy as u can be, the wilder the better, it will not suit u at all to try to be wild after 21! max age 25.. act ur age, and enjoy youth and its glory!

4. become a gym fanatic! coz later on in life when u end up a workaholic, u wont be having time for the gym and u need to have a bit of muscle foundation.. so u wont feel very horrible bout urself and continue working like there's no tomorrow!

5. stay clear of all addictives (booze, smoke, pot, solvents lol)! u wanna ruin ur body be my guest! but do it later on in life will u?

6. find a passion and vow to make it ur profession.. there is nothing better than a lifetime of work u enjoy, chose a uni major as per ur passion!

i shud tag 6 others, so Mayous, Dima, Wonders, Pru, Hala and Andrei, at7efouna eBleez :D

makeovers

2008-02-18T13:17:00.006+04:00

best sedan makeovers of 2008 IMHO

1) Honda accord is my fave for this year, loved the 2007 shape but this year's body is the best accord has ever looked!

and especially the coupé! amazing i reckon!

2) never thought i'd ever say this bout toyota corolla, but it's actually looking good!

3) mitshubishi lancer, no longer a crappy design!

bad omen??

2008-02-18T12:34:00.005+04:00

so i had this HUGE accident on eid (december) and i almost sha6abt il siyara ma3 il 3elem i am a crazy but excellent driver and never in my 7 years of mad driving have i as much as scratched the car badly. il7amdila x 1000. i had 2 fender benders but not even worth mentioning.. il muhem, i got the car back on thursday, and today morning as i am on my way to work, a guy stopped me on the way to the highway telling me that my rear tire is flat!

IS THIS A BAD OMEN?? the car's milage is not even 5000kms.. is selling the car an option if u were me??! i only bought the car in oct :(

Q..

2008-02-17T17:01:00.005+04:00

no not Qwaider :P

but a question, for both genders, how far wud u go supporting ur man financially when ur both still starting up ur life?

and how much wud u accept ur wife to help out with?

m&m

2008-02-17T13:24:00.003+04:00

cant imagine Eminem as the Jumper!

i absolutely loved the movie this weekend, will not write a review since Q already did, wudnt wanna flood the blogosphere with redundant subjects.. BUT i will say that i SO totally wanna teleport! when will they ACTUALLY use science for something good and create a way to teleport???? it wud make so many distant relationships easier to bear and more likely to work out! and it will eliminate homesickness which distracts and depresses a lot of students and husbands or wives or children away for work from their loved ones! not to mention it wud solve the horrid TRAFFIC problem everyone seems to face somewhere in the world!!!!

colors of love

2008-02-14T11:17:00.004+04:00

there is nothing more beautiful than love.. with all its shapes and sizes!

Valentine mood on i guess.. not very mushy tho, just grateful for all small beautiful things in life.. altho i find this day a bit overrated coz all days shud be filled with love and appreciation to ur loved ones, but its a reminder to let ppl around u how much they mean to u.. noone shud be lonely on valentine's, gather ur friends and enjoy ur time..

happy day/weekend to everyone and their loved ones! enjoy the day and make the most of it :D

lets go to the malllllll!

2008-02-12T16:02:00.000+04:00

ahhh! classic lol! was watchin 'how i met ur mother' reruns and the episode was about Robin's big secret and when this came up i laffed my heart out! had to youtube it! damn them 80s! big hair and bejeweled denim jackets and stockings and urghhhhhhh the MUSIC SUX! lol

enjoy the laff!

Two, Four, Six, Eight! How Do You Know Your Kids Are Straight?

2008-02-12T12:15:00.000+04:00

i always hear ppl questioning whether or not gayness is acquired or is it embedded in ppl. its deffenitely not a gene. and i dont believe one is born with the tendency, we r straight by nature ppl!

الضمير المستتر

2008-02-11T15:14:00.000+04:00

Conscience is an ability or sense that distinguishes whether our actions r right or wrong. It is also the attitude which informs our moral judgment before performing any action.

Freud regarded conscience as originating in the superego, which takes its cue from our parents during childhood. According to Freud, the consequence of not obeying our conscience is "guilt" which can be a factor in the development of neurosis. Your conscience is a societal construction which keeps you operating under the social ideology through the negative-feedback system of guilt.... and im sure freud dint mean 'it takes its cue from our parents during childhood' as a default state.. since immoral ppl can raise very ethical children and vice versa..

conscience and guilt r almost always inseperable; when spoken of one u mention the other involuntarely.. and even tho both are intangible, somehow unmeasurable feelings/sensations, yet conscience is the most difficult to maintain, and guilt is the most haunting..

The human animal has a set of instincts and drives which enable him to form/interact in societies.. groups of humans without these drives, or in whom they r insufficiently strong, cannot form cohesive societies and do not reproduce their kind as successfully as those that do. They either cannot survive in nature, or r defeated in conflict with other, more cohesive groups.

i like to think the conflict is rather within!

..

2008-02-10T13:01:00.000+04:00

how healthy is it to just accept our limitations and not challenge ourselves? is it true that we have limitations? or do u, too, believe that we can achieve anything with patience, hard work and perseverance?

best thing bout winter:

2008-02-07T10:23:00.000+04:00

no BO!

the not so 'in' feeling..

2008-02-06T11:39:00.000+04:00

warning: long psychobabble post ahead!

Insecurity

that demon within.. crawling under our skins.. the hungry beast longing for the last bit of confidence and self esteem we have left..

the term in psychology is defined as a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless.. an insecure person lacks confidence in their own value and capability, trust in themselves AND others, or has fears that a present positive state is temporary and will let them down and cause them loss or distress by "going wrong" in future..

insecurity has many effects in a person's life, and it has several levels, starting off with shyness, social withdrawal, even paranoia, sometimes it takes a more agressive form like arrogance, and bullying.. but it nearly always ends up with some degree of isolation..

ppl are not born insecure, it is a learned behaviour.

it often stems from childhood.. and then grows in layer fashion.. and then robs us slowly but surely of self esteem and any social life we might have.. and ruins most relationships.. mostly our relationship with ourselves.. thankfully, insecurity can be overcome, but it takes a lot of strength, willingness to develop, and belief in oneself and others to overcome it..

insecurity is the worse thing to ever hit us. believe me i know. its self destructive and devours our best qualities and best years... we shud learn how to be secure and safe in our own skin. learn to love ourselves. learn to believe that God created us in the best way possible and that He loves us enuf to have created us human and whole..

end of transmission..

life grammar 101..

2008-02-05T12:43:00.000+04:00

Past Progressive - Use:

1) actions were in progress at special time in the past

example from life: They were playing the field actively in their youth..

2) two actions were happening at the same time (the actions do not influence each other)

example from life: He was having his coffee, while she was lost in thoughts of his dark past..

3) repeated actions irritating the speaker (with always, constantly, forever)

example from life: She was always being reminded of her experience(s)..

and keep in mind that Simple Past tense just doesnt exist in life grammar!

end of lesson 1..

we all think we wanna know, we really dont. coz it will haunt us from time to time.. just let bygones be bygones..

the big M

2008-02-04T13:37:00.000+04:00

its all bout marriage these past few days.. on the radio, blogs, and even my friends were talking bout it over the weekend... but sadly, the comments and convos were negative..

"why bother getting married? im satisfied with how my life is!" or "why get married when 80% of marriages are ending with divorce?" or "why get married and waste all my life savings (this from a guy's prespective)?" or the worst debate ever "why do i wanna limit myself to one person for the rest of my life!?"

Now seriously, why does ANYONE wanna be alone?

i cant wait to start forever with my better half and i cant understand how some people really think they're better off alone.. its not that they dread marriage, they're just convinced that they dont need it.. maybe some sort of defence mechanism i donno, but they have become 100% totally convinced that they r in no need to be in a marriage.. and thats so sad..

marriage doesnt have to end with divorce, even if u r hearing/witnessing cases that do end in say 3 4 years and in an ugly divorce, that doesnt mean u will have the same storyline! marriage needs work, just as any relationship.. and call me a fool, but i believe when love exists, all problems r solve-able.. marriages dont have to be ultra expensive either! personally, im one of those ppl who dont believe in weddings.. i like simple receptions, just a small sweet event to celebrate the unity of love and thats it, end of story! all the excess money that goes into making a 'magical' wedding for everyone to talk bout (good or bad ppl will talk and critisize) can go into making a fantastic honeymoon for us!

in retrospect.. when i was 16 (first year uni) i was sure i wanned to stay single forever! i dint find the need to love or be loved so important, i had no trust in mankind and in the existance of good men and i cudnt imagine myself in a marriage and/or having kids etc etc.. but when u fall in real love, u find out that thats exactly what u wanna do..

the eternal question!

2008-02-04T12:15:00.000+04:00

style?

or

comfort?

TGIF

2008-01-31T13:18:00.000+04:00

TGIF has a whole new meaning to me right now! thank God its february! after one hell of a january.. well the first part of jan was gr8, i was on holidays :D

but the second part of it was not so nice.. appraisals tension (went fine tho), work load (getting loadier and loadier!) and personal/domestic issues..

so welcome the shortest month in the year! even tho its gonna be a day longer :smily bished sha3ro: damn u leap years!

have a gr8 weekend everyone :)

arghhhh!!!

2008-01-30T13:29:00.001+04:00

why wont this week end already!

999

2008-01-30T12:57:00.000+04:00

"Can you tell me the speed limit on Airport Road going toward Al Rashidiya?"

"I have been waiting for a taxi for so long, but all of them are refusing to stop ... what do I do? "

"I have a traffic fine ... can you tell me when it was issued?"

These are but a few examples of trivial and inane calls made to 999 every day!!! A staggering 573,471 calls were made to 999 in 2007 and these were not emergencies. Most were enquiries on speed limits on roads, location of certain departments, traffic fines, transactions related to the Naturalisation and Residency Department, trading issues and complaints against taxi drivers.

the rest of this article published yesterday in Gulf News here.

Where has common sense evaporated from the minds of these silly people??!!

i dont agree with #2..

2008-01-30T09:29:00.000+04:00

Howeh ya 6o55o?

ya ekser mu55o???

thought of the day..

2008-01-30T08:40:00.001+04:00

اكسير الحياة هو الصحة و اكسير الشباب هو الروح
نوثينج الس از نيديد..

- ديمة

fashion nonsense

2008-01-29T14:45:00.001+04:00

beany and a jacket or hooded jacket, shorts and flip flops!!!!!

leih!

salty water..

2008-01-29T13:06:00.000+04:00

Tears are words from the heart that cannot be spoken.

-Anonymous

Qwaider's post about crying and all the comments on how crying is so liberating and such a big relief made me feel a bit alienated.. i donno how but it felt wierd not to be able to relate..

i havent cried in, oh, 6 months.. and before that, 3 years... i dont get the urge to cry anymore, altho sometimes i feel i SO need it to relax my weery little head.. but having been a person who cried so much in her younger years, i find it now a waste of my time.. it wont solve anything now wud it? it will only cause a headache and a stuffy nose..

then why the hell do i miss it!

test ur memory

2008-01-28T16:09:00.000+04:00

here

i wont post my numbers, since i infinitely suffer from CRS (cant remember shit)!

but lemme know how u do :D

5 reasons a computer is male!

2008-01-28T10:41:00.000+04:00

since i have so much time on hand (not!!!) and my mind tends to wander every so often, i decided to end the debate on the gender of computers (who was debating?!) lol anywayyyyy here is my theory :D

1. no one really knows EXACTLY what goes on in there but its creator
2. its attention span is limited and tends to 'sleep' if not spoken to every 10 minutes

3. shud u come across a problem, solving it takes forever and requires a whole lot of key punching and typing and trial and errors until u finally get there, and no 2 problems r solved in the same manner!

4. should u take one home to keep, u will prolly spend half of ur income on toys and gadgets and accessories for the continuance of its efficiency!

5. when u finally get ''hitched'' to one, u discover a few months later that if u waited a bit, a way better one wud have come along!!

..bleh..!

2008-01-27T17:02:00.000+04:00

The human brain starts working the moment you are born and never stops until you stand up to speak in public.

- George Jessel

ya mis6ar George, ba7eb agolak, yeslam boGGak!

today i had to present a bit of a research report to a few clients, and these clients are japanese, and u keep hearing stories bout how japanese businessmen are articulate and disciplined and diligent and to-the-point, and u dont believe that until u come face to face with em! id say intimidating! il muhem, since i had the flu last week, and a pretty bad one too, i had basically spread my germs to everyone in the office and the analyst that was supposed to present had lost his voice over the weekend, so it came down to me :eek: and for those who accuse women of never shutting up, i say give em a bit of public speaking and that shud do the trick!

i cudnt say one sentence, no scratch that, one PHRASE that made sense! i was talking way too fast and my voice was way too low and i cud feel the sweat beads forming on every mm square of my face..! now that im writing it down im laffing in retrospect as their identical japanese faces with jaws dropping and eyes bamboozled stared at me! lol i hate public speaking! i mean if i know these guys, like say in a class, uni lecture or some training where i got to interact with my audience, im perfectly fine! even awesome (yes and humble) but ppl who i meet for the first time? its disastrous! i keep hearing that the best way to speak in public without being that anxious and nervous is to picture everyone naked, but it just DINT HELP @ ALLLLL!! lol

I wonder if it ever worked for anyone?

undress ur personality

2008-01-24T14:49:00.000+04:00

i found a (what i thought was) very interesting study by Psychiatrist Dr.Frank Caprio reveals our personalities through the way we undress! read on and tell me if it you find it fits:

.*.HAPHAZARD UNDRESS.*.If you throw your clothes all over the house , you are a friendly, life-of-the-party type. You are free with the thoughts and opinions, not caring much about the others think of you ..

*.METICULOUS UNDRESS.*.If you remove each piece of clothing and put it away carefully, you are a serious person who likes life very clam. You are comfortable with routine, and you believe that the best way to deal with life's problem is to prevent them in first place ..

*.SHOES AND SOCKS FIRST UNDRESS.*.If you take off the shirt, and ten minutes later get around to the pants, you extremely selfconfident, intellectual, a deep thinker, and don't like to be hassled. Usually you like alot of free time for yourself ..

*.SLOW UNDRESS.*.You are perfectionist, very shy, observant, dependable, intense, and think before making decisions. You go about you tasks methodically, with conectration. You know how to pay attention ..

*.FAST UNDRESS .*.If you get out of your clothes as quickly as possible, you are concerned about others and what they expect from you, but you're worried about your own needs. You are family-oriented, and stay extremely busy ..

*.JEWELRY OFF FIRST UNDRESS.*.If you take off your rings, watch, etc., before anything else, you are warm, thoughful, sensitive, and romantic.

*.NEVER THE SAME WAY UNDRESS.*.If you never do it the same way twice, you a very curious, interesting person, and you enjoy a broad range of activities. You take risks and enjoy fun and adventure.

Quote of the day

2008-01-24T14:32:00.001+04:00

Love is not blind -- it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less
- J. Gordon

the insomniac's musings

2008-01-24T11:08:00.000+04:00

last nite i had a full 5 hour sleep.. finally! its been a while..

funny (not funny ha ha) thing is that in all them sleepless nites, most my thoughts revolve around 2 major things that i somehow supress during my waking hours only to come back and haunt me at nite.. God/religion and how we have drifted from em so much as a community/society and how personally im away lately.. and the future.. all my life i thought i will die young.. donno why but its just my belief/gut feeling.. not to mention any palm reader i came across (with or without the intention of coming across em) freaks out at how short my life line is.. prolly why i dont plan much.. i take every day as it comes, and usually have no regrets.. except for one .. (but thats not bloggable material! too personal to share)..

i fear aging. not coz im a woman and the majority of women fear aging and looking not quite like they used to... but i fear losing this youth inside me. i fear menopause believe it or not! i fear having children and not being able to affect them in any way.. i fear a failed marriage.. i fear becoming one of those middle aged house wives with not much to look forward to but an end to her depression... i even fear not having a source of income and living on the streets! know its all in my head and my destiny is mine to shape, i do believe in fate dont get me wrong, but i think some things r ours to control.. sometimes i think i wanna know what tomorrow holds, but i believe that wud take out all the fun from living!

(mental note: resort to sheep counting often, it worked last nite!)

شر البلية ما يضحك

2008-01-24T10:30:00.000+04:00

hajjaj is amazing at turning misery into laughter..

playing constantly in my head...

2008-01-23T13:22:00.000+04:00

علمي انتهينا و انسينا اللي كان

افترقوا ايدينا بالهوى

ليالي هوانا غمرها النسيان

هوانا لا صوت و لا صدى

شو جاي تخبرني بعد اللي صار

شو جاي تخبرني لما انتهى المشوار

شو بدي احكيلك عني بتحكيلك

على قلبي اللي صار على اخر روح

روح حبيبي حبيبي روح

شو بدك في انساني تركني بحالي

يا حبيبي روح بيكفي جروح

انا كنت نسيتك شو اللي جابك على بالي

حاجه ترجعني للماضي اللي راح

fadl shakir has always been one of my favorite singers, some might argue that his style is almost always the same, but i think he knows what suits that heavenly voice of his and works on it.. i cant wait for the album to come out!

eek!

2008-01-23T09:45:00.000+04:00

Heath Ledger found dead in his apartment in Manhatten..

he was one of my favorite actors.. and he was so young :

how sad..

them japanese got taste!

2008-01-22T15:13:00.000+04:00

Brad Pitt as he appears in a new ad campaign for Japanese denim brand Edwin..

on work and passion for what u do

2008-01-22T13:14:00.000+04:00

or lack thereof!

isnt it the most demotivating feeling when u have to drag urself out of bed to head to an office where u dont feel ur doing anything u like with anyone u like?? is passion for work or working in a line of business ur crazy about just an illusion?! no im sure artists and musicians and actors are living that dream! but what bout the rest of us?

i remember my first job, i loved it! i used to run and skip to the office lol i had 2 terrible colleagues, was working for a sorry excuse of a bank, working with difficult clients AND getting peanuts for pay, but i just loved it! it was fun, busy, fulfilling, and client oriented... i feel i lost that feeling. ever since i left that place (3 years ago) both jobs i took after that were purely for the financial gain.. i feel nothing towards what i do for a living.. if anything, i feel machine-like.. what bothers me most, and saddens me too, is that i truly donno what is it i wanna do.. i have 2 degrees yet they dont come handy! i cant work by my psychology degree in this country unless i have a masters degree from the states/europe, and then have 2 years of experience.. and im currently working by my Commerce degree, but im finding equities a bit too dull for me.. i wish i studied medicine.. and became a surgeon like my childhood dream was.. i need ppl! i need interaction! i need to feel like i am helping someone out! ORRRR go purely by my passion and work in a more artistic line of business.. still that doesnt pay well! arghhh! why does it have to be one way or the other? fulfillment or financial stability? why cant we have it all!!!!

sigh..

Quote of the day

2008-01-22T12:28:00.001+04:00

To sin is a human business, to justify these sins is a devilish one.
- Anonymous

would you

2008-01-22T10:51:00.000+04:00

volunteer to be a surrogate at any point of your life? or would you let your wife/sister/daughter one day help another desperate couple by being a surrogate?

and please treat this as a theoretical question, meaning set aside the religious side of the matter..

Quote of the day

2008-01-21T15:20:00.000+04:00

No wise man ever wished to be younger
- Jonathan Swift

Oniomania

2008-01-21T15:07:00.000+04:00

sounds like a phobia from onions! only its shoppaholicism.. :mal5oom:

moody friends..

2008-01-21T12:13:00.000+04:00

inspired by Asoom's experience here with an ex-friend.. i SO relate to that, and i dint wanna hijack her post :D

i rarely have female friends, simply coz i was not programmed to be like most of them, in my mind, im 100% male. im practical, i dont envy other ppl, i hold no grudges, i dont care bout makeup and clothes like they r the reason for my existance, and i dont ditch ppl coz im having a bad mood! u can call me a tomboy, but ppl who know me personally know i am so far from that.. il muhemm... so i met this girl, and we have mutual friends, some who say she is very nice, but i was always very aware of everything i say around her, and was very careful what i reveal, the case with most ppl but i was consciously aware and pushed myself to watch out for every word with her..

days went by and i gave her a chance, and we became close friends in no time, she was funny, outgoing, and talkative. But she was moody, like, VERY moody! one day she wud be all talkative and sweet, and the next she wudnt return my calls and want nothing to do with me :smily mafsoom with 7 personalities: and after a while i got sick of it! and when she dint call again, i dint either, and was actually nonchalant and happy she was out of my life, with all her negativities that overrid her positive side with time.

neither i nor anyone deserves to be treated like that, the flavor-of-the-week style! whenever their mood is good they r good with u and when its not then to hell with u! that is not the definition of friendship..

i guess thats why i feel more at ease with guys, they're so.. simple! what u see is what u get.. almost EVERY time! plus a guy wont envy u, or get these silly thoughts and cause drama every once in a while.. they r always up for a gr8 time and a good laff.. girly girls wont go out unless u 'book' them in advance so that they wud look good for the outing! with most guys, its "shall we?", "hell yeah!" and i find that refreshing!

2008

2008-01-21T10:59:00.001+04:00

The number 8 is generally considered to be an auspicious number by numerologists. In Babylonian myth there were seven spheres plus an eighth realm, the fixed stars, where the gods lived. As a result, 8 is often associated with paradise. And 8 is my absolute favorite number ever.. hence, the fact that i am VERY optimistic bout this year.. i cant complain bout 2007, it was THE BEST by far in the past 10 years, ruffly speaking.. but why oh why do ppl have to go partying their asses off and drinking all the booze they can (in some occassions, cant) handle on new years eve just coz the earth successfully spinned around the sun one more time!?

generations got accustomed to having a life changing/enhancing resolution or a set of resolutions set for their coming year..

and as every year, i go about making the same list of resolutions! however, i added a new one, learn German, and God knows how many years that will stay on my list! im just not good a planner i presume.. i cant plan my days and my years like some ppl do, i had a 5 year plan when i first graduated but it came crashing down just a year down the line due to family issues and responsibilities that i dint foresee.. since then, i never planned.. i just take every day as it comes.. and i think thats healthier, and maybe even helps keep the sanity bit going.. i dont like stressing over plans and projects, and getting frustrated and disappointed if they werent fulfilled.. a very late happy new years to everyone. hope the year brings u what u want and more :)

الحجاب الحاجز

2008-01-20T14:12:00.000+04:00

WARNING: these thoughts might offend some of u...

regretfully, i am not vieled.. and even tho i know its very wrong, i still cant commit.. yet, everyday i come across tens if not hundreds of 'vieled' girls/women, and by 'vieled' i am referring to the 'modern' 7ijabis who wear second-skin-tees-under-a-tight-camisole-barely-covering-their-bums-in-that-tight-jeans or short-skirts-with-knee-high-boots and consider themselves fully covered..and i cant deny the amount of wrath the scene provokes in me.. i am not preaching, since i am not vieled, but there is a minimum level of 7eshmeh (modesty) that is embedded in everyone, and wearing clothes that leave nothing to imagination is just not right, vieled or not.

it just saddens me so much what little respect some have towards their body and its sanctity..

he is indeed Legend!

2008-01-20T12:03:00.000+04:00

i for one, was completely enamored with this movie.. so many aspects of it were fascinating i thought..

i SO loved it when he said "God dint do this, we did" its so true! God creates sickness but also the cure, but when man wants to play the role of God, things go dramatically wrong! but then again.. man never ceases.. the endless hunger for power.. thats the 8th deadly sin bi ra2yi..

kept thinking throughout the movie, how HARD it is to live all alone like that.. he was so detailed and scheduled and everything was documented and micromanaged.. i would go insane if i were him! noone to talk to? noone to greet in the morn? noone to think outloud with?! i would lose it walla!

but weird thing is, it was labeled as an action thriller, for the 18+ age group.. i dint find it an action movie, nor a thriller.. but ultimately, it was a gr8 movie.. a bit of a new idea in a world of redundant movie scripts..

testing..

2008-01-20T11:40:00.000+04:00

testing.. wan 6oo sree..

its good to be back :)